Finally, i set my dream......PHYSICIST!!!

Just now, i click on the "e"  icon on my desktop, open the yahoo website , and type the word "CAREER RELATED TO PHYSIC", and then click search.

I study in pure science class, this year form4, next year is my final year in secondary school, and also my very important year. This year, will decided my journey of life and my dream. Among Chemistry, Physics , Biology, the most subject i like is Physics, second is chemistry, the last is biology. But Chemistry is my strongest subject, i always score well in chemistry, however, if i drop biology next year, then i will have more time to focus on physic, i have confident  i can score well in physics and math if i can devote all my time on this  subject.

Focus on physics and math, not only to score A1 in SPM, but i want to get the knowledge that is not even can learn in testbook, i want to be a physicist, or a physic lecture since i enroll in the science class. At first, i think this is a cool subject. Anything that happen around us can be solved using physic theory . From observing a phenomenon, identify the problem, conducting the experiment and then analysing the data, lastly making a conclusion and discovered a new world,all of this is a cool things for me..

But what if i am not suitable in this aspect? If i drop biology, this mean i have no other road to chose anymore, i have only a road. What if i fall? What if the road is too dark and too narrow for me? What if i am not as good as i think i am? What if I just have a normal and simple brain?

I dont know what will happen if i fall down. I know there will always be obstacle on the roads, no matter which destination the roads lead to.But i am not sure i am strong enough to withstand and endure such this things. I am always under the protection of my parents, never undergo any hardship or bad life, it's ashamed to admit that i am such weak, brittle and useless, but i am a person like that. Everytime met with obstacle, i will just evading it or seek for assistant, never solve the problems by myself.

Shit~~~Who say form4 is a honeymoon year? this is the most headaching year!!! but i am glad i finally made a decision, and set a target for myself to pursue it. I hope this is not a wrong decision. I do really hope...